[Ready to deny the idea that Russell would be impeding in any way, Benjiro only manages to shake his head as he feels his cheeks grow uncomfortably warm before the conversation continues. Asked for more detail, the teenager quiets to consider how to phrase it briefly.]

It is less disorienting with the repetition... That said, I feel like even with the frequency the gaps in my memory have gotten a little wider. Small things come through, details of an incomplete picture, but some moments of time are completely gone. I take a lot more photos with my phone these days, and being able to look through those helps fill in the missing parts enough that I can construct a basic idea of what has been happening in those blanks. It is comforting to have that.

As for how to get out without catching attention, Sadie and I always travel when the fewest people will be boarding, and look for empty cars on the train to get across the border or at least a space where no one can watch us. I bring a change of clothes with me and change as soon as we revert, and she makes small adjustments like her hat off and a jacket on or off. Sometimes we swap positions on the train immediately to make certain we don't stay associated with the seating if we can't be totally alone in a car.

It works for now, and I have some other ideas for when it becomes less easy to avoid attention.